Subject? Who knows.

Explosion
My heart, it aches
A raging fire
Overwhelming my senses
Taking me
Grabbing me
Holding me
And ripping my heart out

The earth shudders, I can't stand
I've lost my footing
Lost in my emotions
I've finally let go
Of my ties to the earth
To the sky
To the ocean
To the wind
I've released myself

And oh does it hurt
It burns, raging, searing
These feelings
Greatness
Light
Overwhelming
Just overwhelming

I can't control them
Whatever it is
That's taking me over
I've lost myself
But refuse to be found

It strengthens me
Gives me force
Momentum, energy,
Focus, and power
I'm alive, for the first time
I'm awake, at this late an hour
I'm me, I'm new
I've found myself,
Not who I knew, but who I am

Fooled
Fooled myself
Always fooled
This house has not always been this way
Not always been square and white
And it is no longer
This house
This house is a triangle painted orange
A circle colored bright purple
A hexagon, no single wall the same
This house
This house is alive and changing

Dynamic

I'm sad, very sad
The tears, they refuse to stop
But tears of joy
Always joy
Yet I'm sad
So... sad
Full of joy
Full of merriment
and sorrow

My heart hurts
And my eyes hurt
And my head
And my arms
And my legs
And my lips
I'm dying, dying from life
A life I've found
A life I've lost

I see what I am, I see it all
I see where I'm going, nowhere at all
I see
I saw
I will
And thus it ends

I died today
and tomorrow
I died everyday for now and ever
I will die
I will always die
And through that death, I will live

There was an odd burst of pseudo-poetic writing. Not much my style, either. Oh well. I will say though; it's all true. I always say for people to never put song lyrics up unless they think it fits them perfectly, and while that's not song lyrics, I think it fits my mood right now well. Yes, yes, quite well.

Kali has a post up saying she's in love, doesn't she? I haven't read it, but she told me. Its too bad that she doesn't even begin to comprehend the love I have for her. I can't even comprehend it. Its all just to overpowering. I feel quite empowered at the moment, its true. I don't know why.

I look toward the future, a future that is beautiful. I remember clearly the day that I vowed to drop out my negative emotions, to be eternally happy for there is no reason to be otherwise. Today I could say I renewed that personal vow, but I think this time its different. This time. This time, today, I vowed to not only be happy, to be overly happy. To be energetically happy. To be overwhelmingly happy. That word seems so right right now, overwhelming. Its so fitting for the moment.

Ya know, I don't care too much right now. I'm tired of tact, I'm tired of courtesy, I'm tired of being hidden. I'm so tired of it all! I feel free, its overwhelming. Technically, I'm even in a rational state of mind. Perhaps love is intoxicating. I love Kali, I love Zee, I love my family, my life. I love Aaron and Steph and Jim and Brent and whoever the hell else lives up in Ohio. I love everyone down in Texas too. Its infectious. Who says we should be careful with the word love? I don't think so. I think we are all too preoccupied to realize that what we really love is everything. I love everything.

Order, logic, it's all just a way to simplify the chaos of life. We need to remember every once in a while that some of that logic and reasoning and shit needs to just go away, go away for just enough time for us to clear my mind.

Life, love, they probably used to be the same word.

Its funny that we really do choose our emotions. We really, really do. I can be happy in a snap, sad in a snap, angry or jealous or irritated or excited or anxious or anything else I want. Maybe I'm just good like that, but I doubt it. We really, really do control our emotions. I tell myself to be happy, and I'm happy.

Hey Steph, I was thinking the other day? How about the next time you see your mom, you walk up, give her a kiss on the cheek, and ask how she is? Wouldn't that be the greatest thing? Same with you Katy, and you Sophie, and whoever else who has parent problems. For a lot of people controlling emotions might be hard, but its amazing how easy it is to control other peoples emotions like that! Gah, I think that's the coolest thing. You want to have a better relationship with somebody, take them off guard. Surprises are great, and people tend to be, well, shocked by 'em. Give people a big shock, its great.

And Cliff? Don't be so moppy! I know you hate what I have to say, but don't be! Enjoy the life your given, and if you don't like it, change it! Be proactive; its better that way. Take above advice, just more in a figurative since *smirk*.

By the way, I'm better than you all! You're all worthless little pawns to me, nothing, worthless! I hate you all. Just kidding, but its entertaining enough to say. I actually thought of making another post like that just to get people's blood boiling, but I don't have the urge right now, so oh well. Its so funny, some of you people, that if I right some semi-bad things (like an arrogant rant, or saying I did something the other night, or anything like that), y'alled blow a gasket. It really is amusing. I was thinking that my post-ohio trip would include a lot of crap about me fooling around with a couple people, just to see what everyone's reaction would be. That'd be great.

Aaron's now navy bound. Jim's now ... well, mated. Haha, I still need to figure out what that means exactly. Oh yeah, these are my ohio peeps. They're cool, very cool. Everyone would like my ohio peeps (well, Aaron's an ass, but he's a good ass. No wait, he doesn't HAVE a good ass, but he's good at being an ass. Ahh, well, you get it).

I'm gonna explode, Ichigo 100% is over! Only 12 episodes, it kills me. Eats me. Burns me. They say they'll make some DVD ones, and I can't wait. Its an odd anime, but so good if you let yourself be consumed by it. I know Zee hates it, but you just didn't see all of its good points. Its really great, great, great.

Oh yeah! My DPOD! Ya know, like ZPOD, except DPOD. Daniel's Policy on Dating. Haha, great stuff. Wanna know what it is?

~The best way to know you are in a good relationship, or building towards one, is to be able to take a third person view on the connection you have between yourself and the other person. If you laugh outrageously and feel a funny warm feeling inside, you've hit jackpot. Otherwise, you got problems.~

Dude, that is so accurate. Life should always follow the DPOD too. If you can take a step back, laugh, and feel good, everything is good. Everything should be that way. Really, it should. I think it is, too, if you do life right.

Oh man, I'm gonna do everyone a favor and go shoot myself, I'll be back later.

Okay, so I'm not actually gonna shoot myself. Worried ya, didn't I?

~Daniel "Jharviss" Burrow